“Life beats down and crushes the soul and art reminds you that you have one.” – Stella Adler
It is a fact universally acknowledged that we live in a fast-paced commercial world. With each passing second it seems the world is spinning faster and our days are getting shorter. We are constantly consumed with getting ahead; with making more money than the next guy, keeping up with the Kardashians, and zooming through life without stopping to smell the roses or contemplate what it really means to exist, and where true joy can be found. More and more I find myself giving way to the inertia of it all and becoming that whirling dervish –the stereotypical crazed American glutton, and I feel confronted by two opposing statements that push me toward life change:
1) Life is too short to waste time doing the unnecessary or unpalatable.
2) Life is too long to be stuck in a rut doing the same thing over and over again.
The only way I can reconcile both of these statements is to stare the ennui that comes from being a 31 year old childless woman on the edge of a quarter-midlife crisis square in the face and say “no more”. It is to create a fork in the trench I am in and forge a new path where beauty and wonder and curiosity exist. It means being vulnerable: very vulnerable, more vulnerable than I have ever been. It means sharing the journey with anyone who cares to walk with me. It means becoming bohemian.
Disclaimer: I am opening myself up here hoping to find community not a cult of personality. I am fully aware that I am average. This is not a blog about a perfect life or a perfect person. I have faith that there are others out there who share the same existential angst, who crave a space on the internet for the imperfect, the exposed and unairbrushed. A place where what is beautiful is unique, not all the same imposed artificial size 2.
I envision this blog becoming a place to explore exciting art, literature, music, places and spaces, and not least of all food and wine; a place where we get to develop a new, slower and more thoughtful culture. We can eke out a new existence. It’s out there. I’m convinced it is. We just don’t see it. Through this blog I hope to develop new eyes and embrace the art and beauty that exists around us, but is often ignored.
So if that resonates with you, please subscribe, comment, and participate. I want to learn with you. I hope that this can be a safe place for discussion: a forum for sharing creative ideas and ways to cope with existential angst, and a place to celebrate being young and being alive.